Aloha!
You probably think this post is gonna be somehow related to Hawaii but really it's not. I don't have any travel plans for summer. Just a bunch of... well, wait, I don't actually have plans.
Ramadan is almost over, and I feel like a hypocrite for writing this, but I have felt so unproductive this month it isn't even funny. I was so hopeful I would finish reading at least half of the Quran, but I'm literally still stuck at the beginning. Usually, I don't make one of my Ramadan goals to finish the Quran because every year I try, I don't succeed. Now as I write that out it seems so foolish. Yes, I can at least try, but what have I done to try? I mean, most of what I've done is read or listen to at least one page after Fajr, but that's basically it! In the beginning of Ramadan I was actually trying, but as the days progressed I lost the vibe and--you could say--gave up. I really don't know if this Ramadan made a difference on me. I'm still lazy, unproductive, and unmotivated. And now the month is ending. Let's hope that at least my duas are accepted!
Okay, moving on. I just finished teaching my creative writing class yesterday. It was supposed to be a four week course from June 5 to July 5 with the exemption of Eid week, but I had to squish two classes together into one day because most of my students (the majority of only 5) were traveling elsewhere for quite a long period of time. It was a good experience teaching those kids. I earned money, but most importantly I discovered what a lame teacher I am. I love teaching, teaching writing especially, and I'd definitely do it again. Art not so much because you have to get messy and actually draw something good. I do love art but I'm a "lazy" artist and my art really isn't good enough to be taught to anyone in a formal classroom setting.
Other than that class, I don't have any other summer plans. I was supposed to take a math class in July, but I looked at the class openings late and I couldn't register. But now we have decided that I will enroll in a computer graphics specialist certificate program for the fall. I'm excited... should I be?
I think I've done a good job staying optimistic this Ramadan. Or is it just because the Shaytaan have gone?
Allah knows.
Whoever reads this post, please pray that I strengthen my relationship with Allah and His Book. Please. I will try my best.
Until next time! :)
Ramadan is almost over, and I feel like a hypocrite for writing this, but I have felt so unproductive this month it isn't even funny. I was so hopeful I would finish reading at least half of the Quran, but I'm literally still stuck at the beginning. Usually, I don't make one of my Ramadan goals to finish the Quran because every year I try, I don't succeed. Now as I write that out it seems so foolish. Yes, I can at least try, but what have I done to try? I mean, most of what I've done is read or listen to at least one page after Fajr, but that's basically it! In the beginning of Ramadan I was actually trying, but as the days progressed I lost the vibe and--you could say--gave up. I really don't know if this Ramadan made a difference on me. I'm still lazy, unproductive, and unmotivated. And now the month is ending. Let's hope that at least my duas are accepted!
Okay, moving on. I just finished teaching my creative writing class yesterday. It was supposed to be a four week course from June 5 to July 5 with the exemption of Eid week, but I had to squish two classes together into one day because most of my students (the majority of only 5) were traveling elsewhere for quite a long period of time. It was a good experience teaching those kids. I earned money, but most importantly I discovered what a lame teacher I am. I love teaching, teaching writing especially, and I'd definitely do it again. Art not so much because you have to get messy and actually draw something good. I do love art but I'm a "lazy" artist and my art really isn't good enough to be taught to anyone in a formal classroom setting.
Other than that class, I don't have any other summer plans. I was supposed to take a math class in July, but I looked at the class openings late and I couldn't register. But now we have decided that I will enroll in a computer graphics specialist certificate program for the fall. I'm excited... should I be?
I think I've done a good job staying optimistic this Ramadan. Or is it just because the Shaytaan have gone?
Allah knows.
Whoever reads this post, please pray that I strengthen my relationship with Allah and His Book. Please. I will try my best.
Until next time! :)
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