Mirth and Melancholy

Hello hello hello! It's Nura again, here to entertain you :) I stayed at home for the majority of my day, but I feel as though quite a lot of things happened. I was awakened at Fajr time, around 6:36 AM. My sister was going to go to the masjid to pray Fajr, and then she would come right back and send me to school. Now, why did I go to school on a Thursday? (My class days are M & W.) Well, because I had to meet up with my group partners in English class so we could discuss what we learned the other day (did I mention that the guys didn't come to class yesterday?), which was how to get an A on our presentation. Anyway, I dressed in all black, mostly because I didn't have the time or energy or clean clothes to put together a decent-looking outfit. On a side note, I've been wearing black this whole week. On Monday, I wore a black long-sleeve shirt, a black skirt, my new black hijab, and a flowy leopard tank top that's black on the inside. My shoes are also black...

I love being at school! (Again) Today in English class we didn't do warm-up sentences like usual, just because the teacher said he didn't feel like doing them. And he asked the class, "Do you ever feel like doing them?" And what I did was just smile, but in all honesty I enjoy doing the warm-up sentences. I think it's a great way to start the day and get the writing muscles at work. Anyway, we talked about presentations and how to make them successful, and then we got into our groups to peer edit each others' rough drafts. The guys in our group didn't come for some reason, so it was just the three of us girls peer editing. One of my group members, C, called me "English professor #2" because she has this impression that I'm smart, when in reality, I'm just good at English, hehe. And then C and our other group member L started talking about how they couldn't believe B, another group member, was 19, because his facial hair made him loo...

I always thought the word November had an evil and sadistic implication behind it. November. November. November. Maybe it's the appearance of the word "No." Maybe it's the V? It couldn't at all be the fact that this word begins with my initial, nope. Well, I guess we'll wait until someone with a high I.Q. comes up with a good answer. Let's leave them to that while I transition to my next topic. Which is, respectfully, the coming of November. Can y'all believe it? This year is almost over! Several memes on social media are saying how this year should not be spoken of, but I personally believe that this year, for me, was a great one. I can never forget this year, because this is the very year in which I collaborated with my online friend on my first official book in my entire writing history! Gotta keep that in mind, eh? Oh, and this month is National Novel Writing Month. Dang it, it slipped my mind. I'm going to try it this year, inshaAllah. I...

Well, tonight's a quiet night. I expect everyone is out trick or treating...? Is it permissible for Muslims to celebrate Halloween? It's the ceremony of the devil, to say the least. I don't know if people, namely Muslims, who celebrate this holiday know the history behind it, because the history is quite chilling. And not the good chilling you like to feel when you watch a horror movie. The spooky, eerie, sadistic chilling. Let me educate you. Sit down. The origin of Halloween goes all the way back to the time of pagans, when it was called the Celtic Day of the Dead. On this day, the Druids would try to please their lord of the dead, Samhain. October 31 marked the eve of the Celtic New Year, and on this night, it was believed that the souls of dead people entered the land of the living and roamed around. Among these dead souls were also devils, witches, and spirits, all of which on this night were full of power. Halloween was the night of games which involved fort...

There I go, using song lyrics for post titles. Again. I'm so creative sometimes and other times I'm not. It's really annoying because I don't have a clear, unwavering answer of who I am. Well, I guess the word "wavering" is enough to describe me. I'm in the school library and I just cast my vote. I got a sticker that says "I Voted Today" and it's red and blue and white and all cute with tiny stars around the edges and all that jazz. I don't know what I'll use that sticker for, but I'm going to keep it like the memory hoarder I am. This is my first ever vote in my life. Hopefully next time there will be better candidates. If there is a next time.World might end before then. Chillax though; I have hope that everything will turn out well. Because that is the case with most things. Right? *nervous smile* Anyway, I had a point here which I kinda forgot. Oh, yes. So I was going to say that I love school when I'm here. Pe...

Please listen to this so that you know the reason behind my post title: I'm Alive Warning: FEELS AHEAD!!! If you don't wanna cry today, read this post some other day.  I've never really thought I was worth anything to anyone. Maybe I don't have to feel it for it to be a reality, but sometimes I like to be assured just so that I'm not motivated to end my life. I know the reason for living is to serve Allah and not to serve others, but along the way we all do need other people to help lift our spirits and bring us up. I've been feeling pretty down lately, but it's solely my fault. Suicidal thoughts have been bubbling in my mind. What's the easiest way to commit suicide? How do you kill yourself without having to use a knife? What if I walked outside and had a car run over me? What if I stay out late on Halloween night and let a creepy clown kill me? (Yes, that last one was something I actually considered.) And then the most popular question... ...

So I have a test today, and I haven't really studied at all, but hey, who studies anyway? My legs are hurting so much. I think I pulled a muscle. I've been walking everywhere way too much nowadays. Mondays and Wednesdays I walk all around campus. Saturdays I *usually* walk in the stores when we go shopping (our weekends have been so occupied lately that the schedule hasn't been regular for quite a while). That's the general summary of my week concerning walking, but this past week ... or maybe I should say these past WEEKS have been soooooo chock-full of energy. And walking. Ugh. Went to Six Flags a couple weeks back. Went to the State Fair. Went on a field trip with geology class to Oklahoma. We were in a bus but we did have to WALK!!! But, yeah, my legs hurt. But I shouldn't complain because I have SOME friends who have an even BIGGER campus than mine and they stay at school for a longer amount of time than I do. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, M8 Anyway, what am ...